If I could
Today would have been my Mom’s 51st birthday. She would have been hating it!
One of the things I miss the most since she has passed away was simply the ability to talk to her. We had been living so far apart for the last few years that most of our relationship was over the phone rather than face to face. We talked at least once a day, sometimes more. I would call to ask her the ingredients for a recipe or tell her something cute that Andrew did. There were a few times shorty after she passed away that I called her cell phone number just to hear her voice recording.
I miss hearing her voice.
If I could talk to her today I have so much I would tell her.
I would tell her that I have three little boys now.
I would tell her how smart Andrew is and all the funny things he says. That he is potty trained and how his teachers at school tell me how kind and considerate he is. How he loves to read books and sings worship songs in the car.
I would tell her that Joshua looks just like her and acts just like Spencer did. That he is into everything but loves when I give him a task to complete. That he lets me cuddle with him when he’s really tired and sucks his two middle fingers. How he has started to say prayers out loud at bedtime, even if it’s just repeating the last word of the phrase we say.
I would tell her what a sweet sweet boy Zachary is. That he looked just like Joshua when he was born but looks like both boys now. That he loves a little attention and will just smile and gurgle when you talk to him. That he has a dimple just like she did.
I would tell her what a beautiful little girl Caroline is and how she’e fiercely independent like her mommy! How Joel is so loving and too smart for his own good 
If I could talk to her she would call me “honey” and tell me that she is proud of me.
I am thankful for the gift I had in my Mom, and that even though she is gone we have many sweet memories to hold on to.
Thank you, Jesus, for the gift of eternity. I know that this world is a temporary place and someday we will all be together again!
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Sending a little extra love your way today.I only met your mom a few times but I could see how close you were. I’m sure she would be so proud of the wife and mother you’ve become!
Hi Lindsey,
I think of your Mother every single day, and miss her like crazy. She would tell me in every phone conversation how proud she was of her children, and grandchildren. I know she is longer in pain, and I can picture her being oh so busy in heaven. I know that our human heart can still and does ache. I don’t like posting my private feelings on facebook, but instead talk to her everday as I working around the house, and especially through the past couple of weeks. I felt like she was right there with me giving me courage and strength just like she had. Praise God for the promise of an eternal life for through who accept Christ as their Saviour. I pray for peace and comfort for you, Emily, Matthew and Nicholas.
Love to all,
Robin
Well, I have been avoiding crying for a few days now, thanks for helping the tears flow, Linds. Sending you a big hug. xo